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thanks FUNCTIONAL SHAKER but I need to face my demons..I have tried but it is more complicated than that..yes I never drank like this before NOV...in fact I worked 6 days a week for the past 7 years,,I lost my job out of never getting along with my lazy female night crew chief..I was running latepulled into the front of the store..I clocked in as she stood there..I ran out and parked my car..the next night I came into work and the store manager said I was fired for stealing company time (6 minutes)..she could not even be a real manager as she let me work that night and told them in the morning...and the company was able to get rid of a full time employee with benefits..so losing my job with full health benefits meant losing my costly mental health medication..then my car accident in JAN. and a bad back and knee injurythat is being treated with powerful pain medication (I need back surgery most likely) I realize now that the medication is mind altering, but if I do not take it I get sick..combined with trying to survive in the basement and depression I sometimes get myself in a real mess..I recently did not get a job as I failed the drug test..it does not matter with a drs note as you are considered under the influence..I really am in much pain and cannot move without it..and yet do not know how to stop....I am not broke, but I am not wealthy....continued
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