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Originally Posted by sdbob

I'm learning to embrace the pain with the help of god,esp our lord walking with me. Life I'm learning is the loss of pets,moms,dads,brothers,sisters,friends,acquaintan ces, and spouses. We love them and when the loss comes it's hard to understand. The shoulda,coulda, woulda s ran through my mind. I have faith in the lord that he will guide me,like walking with me along the beach at the waters edge holding my hand. My wife I believe is in a better and happier place. Where her intercession can help me. We walk by faith and not by sight. I'm learning but it's hard. I try not to be self centered. I hope I make sense. I'm still 'spinning' so to speak. Thank you.

Bob, I am so sorry. I’m just reading this post since I have been consumed this summer with getting the backlog of “honey dos” from two years taken care of. I can’t imagine the grief and pain you are enduring. My wife is severally allergic to all mammalian meat due to AGS( alpha gal syndrome) from the bite of a Lone Star tick. She has anaphylactic events from time to time,; sometimes the Epi-Pen works, other times we are on our way to the ER. I live with the dread of the “what if’s” that come with a loved one who has a life threatening condition. The only advice I can possibly give you? Life your life now moment to moment. Don’t let anyone tell you that you have to get over losing your wife. You DO NOT! You only have to accept it. You’ll be on my prayer list, Bob.